What a difference a day makes

Monday, March 25, 2019. After our appointment with Dr. Ewing and her Nurse Practitioner Shelly on Friday, Steve and I were in a state of shock for a couple days. But on Sunday, I reread my MRI results from February 26, 2019 and did not see anything in the report that said the tumor between my major and minor pectoralis muscles was in the tissue. It said, “Interval decrease in size and degree of enhancement of the right chest wall mass located between the pectoralis major and minor muscles.” Between.

I decided to write Dr. Ewing a letter to get some clarity and to make sure we were on the same page AND to make sure she had thoroughly reviewed my chart since she didn’t immediately recall that my cancer was triple negative not estrogen positive. I reminded her that she had told me in November she would do surgery with or without chemo. In the letter I quoted the latest MRI report recommendations and reassured her that I still had confidence in her as my surgeon, and trusted her medical opinions and recommendations. I went on to say that I simply wanted to confirm that further chemo would be required before surgery would be considered or scheduled.

I logged into MyChart and messaged both Dr. Ewing and her Nurse Practitioner and attached the letter.

Late Monday evening Nurse Shelly called to let me know that Dr. Ewing had received my letter, and how much they appreciated me sharing my concerns. I gave Shelly a brief overview of my November 30 visit with Dr. Ewing since she was not there. Shelly said because of the location of the tumor and how delicate the surgery would be, that Dr. Ewing now felt it needed to be smaller or dissolved before she would do the surgery, and therefore would reach out to Dr. Rugo with her concerns. Shelly also said that Dr. Ewing was taking my case to the UCSF Tumor Board on April 8, that Dr. Rugo and her team would be present and they would determine the best course of action for my continued treatment. She also wanted to schedule another MRI in about 2 months. The call ended with the usual courtesies…me thanking her for her time and the call, her telling me I was courageous. Blah. Blah. Blah.

I did appreciate the call, but I didn’t feel all that much better. In my heart, I just wanted to know what Dr. Rugo would have to say.

Tuesday, March 26, 2019. The appointment with Dr. Rugo was vastly different than the one I had with Dr. Ewing. Dr. Rugo let me know that she had not heard a word from Dr. Ewing, she had not been informed about my case going to the Tumor Board, and she was surprised that Dr. Ewing was now reluctant to do surgery after I had completed the 12 chemo treatments. She immediately started texting Dr. Ewing to try to get some answers. She examined me and measured the tumors, and we both agreed they had gotten smaller in the three weeks since my last visit. She recommended that rather than 12 infusions that I do 14 and perhaps the tumors would dissolve by then. She also wanted me to have another MRI on April 15 (the day before my last treatment). She also let Steve and I know that she would be out of town on April 8, so would not be at the Tumor Board. We let her know that we did not want my case presented if she was not there. We all agreed it would be best if it went to the Tumor Board on April 22, so the latest MRI report would be available for review. I asked if she thought I should consider getting a second opinion from another surgeon. She told me that all of the breast cancer surgeons sit on the tumor board, so it wouldn’t be necessary to make an appointment with someone else for a second opinion. Dr. Rugo reminded me that my tumors are localized. They have not metastasized to any other organs, blood, bones, or anywhere else. She reassured me I had a long life ahead. That there was no reason we could not beat this. She gave me a big hug before she left. Steve and I felt a great sense of relief afterward.

By the time we headed up to the fifth floor for my 130p infusion, it was almost 430p. For the second week in a row my nurse was Miesha—a beautiful, young lady with a radiant smile. They type of person who has the gift of making you feel beautiful. We greeted each other with a warm hug. It was around 645p by the time we left and we pulled in our driveway at 915p. Another super-long, exhausting but hopeful day.

I need your help. My tumors need to dissolve or be nearly dissolved by April 15 (the day of my MRI). I’m asking you to envision my main tumor melting away. Imagine this 1 x 1 centimeter tumor, lying between my minor and major pectoralis muscles, dissolving (image from The Hughes Foundation, Inc. © 2017). Chest-1Disappearing. If you would envision this little tumor melting away once a day, every day between now and April 15, I believe it will happen. Our collective power will help the chemo destroy this stubborn yet vulnerable tumor. I believe in the power of numbers. That the more of us who are asking, the better my chances of it actually happening. I am making it a part of a daily meditation. For you it might be part of your daily prayers. I’m just asking you to be specific about what you pray for, meditate on, or ask the universe to provide. Together we will destroy what remains, and I can get my life back.

The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any. —Alice Walker

18 Replies to “What a difference a day makes”

  1. You know I’m there with you. It will happen Lana…it has to happen. The universe does have a way of sending the right messages and actions. I love you and Steve and am praying for you that this awful disease retreats. xoxo

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  2. Oh Lana, I’m so there with you and the rest of us! What a relief to hear this great news. It hasn’t metastasized. That is huge, and I had lost sight of that. I’ll see you in our meditations & prayers.
    Love you,

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  3. You know we are with you Lana, everyday! Will pray and visualize that tumor dissolving. You are a wonder and we love you very much😘

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  4. I giggled this morning while I said my prayers in bed…”I pray for Nana (my almost 93 year old Mom), and I pray for Lana (like banana)! Now I will pray for your “main tumor melting away…dissolving! Not sure if I can come up with a rhyme but I’ll work on it! Sending love!

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  5. I love having very specific images guiding my prayers. I also believe in collective power like you describe. I trust that your tumors will continue to shrink enough for your surgery.
    Looking forward to hearing all about the wonderful outcome. Love you.❤

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  6. I agree Lan – more positive thoughts from everyone, the more that/those little f*ckers are going to shrink and go away! Damn Girl! I love you!

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  7. Absolutely will visualize the tumors dissolving, pray for your continued health, weight gain and good numbers and hold you in my thoughts always. Those little buggers are toast! Keep up the positive feelings and know that we are all holding you in our hearts and hands. Let’s kick some cancer butt!! 😘

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  8. Hi Lana, Well, I was a little late to my email, but I will double up on dissolving this main tumor of yours with all my heart. I am happy you got to talk to Dr Rugo. She seems more positive. Take care Lana, Patty


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  9. Done deal, darlin’. It’s gladly dissolving, decompressing, departing, done. Tumor cells relieved to stop. T-cells & other immune cell friends meeting at their destination together to chow down, clean up, refresh, repair & laugh. Your body’s correcting, getting right & it feels good.
    Lots and lots of love 😍

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