Seventy One

August 26, 2023.

Unexpected birthday gifts—a balloon from the UCSF pharmacist, a pillow heart from an unknown friend of another patient, an octopus crocheted by a fellow patient as we sat opposite one another for treatment, cookies and chocolate from my research coordinator.

When you think about your birthday and how you might celebrate, you don’t envision chemotherapy as the cocktail of the day. Cycle 11, Day 8 was, in fact, my 71st birthday.

I was hopeful that the universe might take my birthday into account and make the day as smooth as possible. But, no. Instead there were delays that turned what could have been a 3-1/2 hour day into a 5-1/2 hour day, getting us home at 8p rather than 530p.

But it wasn’t all bad.

The funny thing about having your birthday on infusion day, is that all the nurses and caregivers wish you a happy birthday. How do they know it’s your birthday? Because every time you check in, get vitals taken, have bloodwork done, get premeds or get infused, they say, “Tell me your name and your date of birth.” So, of course they knew, if only in that moment. The second time I heard, with surprise in their voice, “Oh, happy birthday!” I looked the nurse straight in the eye and said questioningly, “Is it?” Surprisingly she replied, “You’re still here.” And she was right. Still being here is worth all the happy birthday wishes I welcomed from that point on.

We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures. —Thornton Wilder

16 Replies to “Seventy One”

  1. 😊I love the very soul that you are and present in our lives. You touch my heart and I am so grateful you. love you girlfriend.

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  2. I’m sorry you had to get an infusion on your special day. I am grateful that you are here and can’t wait to celebrate with you next year. Love you lots!

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  3. Well Happy Birthday Lana !! It’s a very speical day. The day you became you, and all the days after. Some days better then others , all that makes you who you are.. Now the 71 year old , you has alot to look back at and say Wow.. Harley and I wish you the very best for health, and happiness in the year ahead.You truly deserve it!! Hugs and Friendship

    ❤🌺💐

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  4. Happy 71st, sweet angel, Lana, beautiful woman! Glad to know you had some very special moments while undergoing treatment.
    You seem to know how to make the best of almost every situation. Having gratitude is second nature to you. I think that’s a big part of your healing process.

    Love you to bits. ❤️

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  5. Happy Birthday dear Lana!!
    🎉 🎈 🎶 🎂 🍾 🥂 🎊 🤗 🌻 💕 🌻 💕
    It is indeed a reason for celebration because those of us that love you are very glad you are here❣ The only sad part was having to do the treatment on your bday! I hope you are able to take today to relax and enjoy some peace & quiet outdoors. Love you pretty lady!! 😘

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